Mulberry Bush

I was speaking with my cousin, Blair, the other day and I told her how lost I am without my son and that it seems I’m even lost in my writing. I have all of these directions I want to write, and I continue to go around the mulberry bush, lost in finding the one direction with the choicest mulberry off the bush. My going around the bush is my internal landscape manifesting in my outer world.

She advised me to just go 180 degrees instead of around the bush, choose any berry (not necessarily the choicest one), and write three ideas/sentences around THAT berry. So here are my three ideas around this one berry:

• I was listening to Sunny D. Johnston a while back and she discussed the differences between “Gratitude” and “Appreciation.” The “berry” from the bush is “Appreciation.”
  • Idea 1 –The Energy of Appreciation: It’s difficult for a parent of an ascended child to hold gratitude on any given day. However, appreciation holds a different energy. To me, the energy feels like a gift in my heart, body, mind, and Soul. I am appreciated by The Divine for continuing to get up every day and BE something different with the Light of my Son in me than I was on the first day. That Light I continue to BE is my appreciation of the life I was able to find joy in, every moment of every day of the 23 years, 5 months, 21 days, and 13 hours I was blessed to be his Mom. HE is the gift that lives in me and I share with all of you. I’m not grateful for where and WHO I am now without John. I do appreciate the very fact that I am still capable of those memories being a part of my very being and that through my very existence, I am the living pages of those memories.
  • Idea 2 – The Quality of Appreciation: The word “appreciate” actually means to measure the quality and worth of something. There is no worth of a child beyond eternal love. Parents are given a child as a gift to be a kind, loving, mentoring steward to and for, so that a parent doesn’t fail their child in the one thing that is eternally Divine–Love. Love is a child’s worth and the quality of that love is eternal. We parents hold our child’s eternal love as our worth. Every time we share that Light with another, we appreciate who they were, and are within us. This is a parent’s greatest quality every moment of every day after their child has ascended.
  • Idea 3 – The Choicest Berries: There are none for a parent of a child who has ascended. What is now emerging from the bush that was desecrated into a powder beyond recognition is something entirely new. What berries emerge are not even mulberries. They are perfectly, imperfectly discolored, distorted, and almost always bitter at first until the sweetness of their truth is appreciated by the beholder.

Life isn’t always about the choicest berries. Sometimes the berries are so desecrated that the bitterness in the depths of change bring on a feeling of being “lost.” With holding appreciation in our very being, we become the sweetness that has appreciated over time. When we parents of ascended children get lost in the world without our children, we may find ourselves running around the mulberry bush and find no berries. We parents are the berries that, over time, appreciate into the sweetness of the mead.

Much Love in the Light of the Divine. May Spirit be your guide in the appreciation of your life in this path.